So things have really not been going
so well. I’m back in the hospital again with a pain crisis that can’t be
managed by any of the pain meds that they’ve been giving me. I’ve literally
been crying in pain. For some mysterious reason, in the last two days, I’ve had
a little bit of pain relief, but I’m so scared the pain will come back. A ways
to prevent the pain from getting too bad is to put a catheter into my spinal
cord, which, please cross your fingers that they can do. Right now, I’m scared
they won’t do it because my body is so weak. Okay, enough about my pain.
The second terrible terrible news is
that my oncologist wants to stop chemo and make everything from now on just
pain control. Basically what I’m hearing is that they’re giving up on me and I’m
done. I really don’t know what to do. I do have to admit that my body is very
weak and new problems keeps on popping up. I really want to pain free and go
home. I don’t know how much time I have left, but that’s how I would want to
spend it.
Hey special young lady. Life just isn't fair, right. They need to find something to ease your pain ( imagine me stamping my foot on the floor like a child while I write this). Hang on. Sending you a big hug today, as big as an elephant. Elephant hugs are special hugs for special people, hope you know that. M.
ReplyDeleteHey Manuela, thanks for the hug! It really is special :)
DeleteI hope the pain gets better. I'll be praying for you as always.
ReplyDeleteMike
Thanks Mike!
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